Hello… me again. it’s been some time since i posted. yes, the angels did beat the yankees… however… that was all that they beat. they lost to the Chicago white sox in the ALCS round prior to the world series. but, that’s ok…there’s always next year…
anway…. so life is going well… nothing new to report really. except for this: so, am i ugly? am i too fat? am i unattractive internally??? seriously people… clue me in as to why i can’t get a date. yes, peoria is not the most hip and attractive place to meet someone…. but still… I mean, I’m cute, I’m fun, I’m a strong Christian, I’m intelligent, I’m aware of world events and politics, I’m grounded, I’m energetic and enthusiastic, I’m passionate, I’m CUTE! seriously people…. find me a date. just a date. someone who WANTS to date me. someone who is attracted to me and I’m attracted to him. Someone who will PAY for the date and not expect me to pick up the pieces of my heart after he leaves. So, seriously people…. help me here. I can’t do it on my own any more. I’m ready for someone to set me up. Just do it…. 
Ok, so yeah, that was basically my ranting about being single and how i hate it. I’m 21 years old and I’ve never had a serious relationship, or even a real relationship. the 3 almost relationships I’ve had turned out to be nothing. one of them is a jerk for making me out to be a joke, the other broke my heart because he started dating my best friend right when i was ready to start something, the other still has a piece of my heart because I gave something to him that I can’t get back (no, not m virginity…ewwww)…but in all three of these instances, the problem was that i get myself get too involved emotionally and in my own head before anything real happened. so does this mean that i live in a fantasy world… basically. whenever i begin to like a guy, i let my head run away with itself (funny image there)… basically i think of different situations that would be romantic… but they are unreal situations. they are situations from movies where i place myself as the beautiful girl and the guy i like as the charming prince. seriously. i hate it when i do that, because then it completely ruins reality. it makes the real thing disappointing. then my life and my mind and my heart is filled with regret, disappointment, and heartbreak. I don’t think I can do that anymore. So people, pray for me. pray that my heart is protected, my mind is guarded and my prince charming out there comes soon!
Ok, i think that’s enough for tonight
peace in yo; on rock
