Ok, so yeah… that’s a long title. But I have alot to talk about in this post!
So, Sara Groves. She is an amazing Christian singer. I love her! Her music is inspiring, thought provocing, beautiful and amazing. I love it. She is so talented. She’s one of my new favorites. She has this amazing way of being able to making me think about my life and who I am in relation to who God is and who God wants me to be. I love it. It’s a great worshipful experience. I love just driving around the cities listening to music. Bebo Norman has that effect too. His song, “The Hammer Holds” is all about a shapeless piece of steel becoming a nail that pierces innocent flesh, Jesus’s flesh. It’s amazing. I love it. Bebo Norman is a great songwriter also. I can’t get enough of it. Nichole Nordeman, who has always been one of my favorites, is another amazing song writer and singer. Her song “why” is one of my favoriet crucifixion songs. It puts Jesus’ sacrifice into a whole new light. I love the way that music makes me feel. Jesus is such an inspiration to me. There are so many areas in my life where I screw up and I fail and I fall on my walk with Him. But he is always right there next to me, grabbing my elbow and helping me up again. Why would anyone do that? why would anyone help someone get up after stumbling about ever ten steps? wouldn’t he get annoyed? I love the answers… NO!It’s because he loves us. He doesn’t get annoyed with us because we’re his children. He created us and wants us to know him. We learn from the stumbling. He doesn’t want for us to stumble, but because of sin and free will, we do. We always will, until He comes again. But we can have faith that our salvation and our eternity is taken care of. What a thought! I know where I’m going when I leave this earth. What a comfort to know that I’m going to be in heaven with my King! My KING! I would worship Him all the days of my life. I owe him so much and yet, because of his death on the cross and the resurrection, I owe him nothing. That’s unfathomable to me.
My family is amazing. I love them so much. they do so much for me and love me unconditionally, no matter how much of a bitch i am to them. I’m going to miss being even farther away from them when I’m internship…
internship…. well, placement is in 2 days…. monday… I’m exstatic!!! The early parts of this week were rough because i was dealing with alot of rougher issues… control and trust. I didn’t trust God. I think that’s going to be a daily struggle in my life. I don’t trust people in general. I need to learn how to trust. I wonder where this stems from. I don’t know…i want to trust people, but i just cant. i would rather get it done myself. How can i learn to trust others and especially God. I mean, he created me! of course he knows what’s best for me. i feel like i’m insulting him when i’m not trusting him, and that’s the last thing i want to do. Lord, help me to put my trust in you. you have my heart, now just have my mind and my trust Lord. Your love is amazing.
ok, so… this has been a really long post. i think i’ll stop now… stop… ok… peace in yo. chat with ya on Monday! heeheh…we’ll see where I’m going next in this journey we call life. 
