So, I think I’ve become restless with my life. I’m bored. I’m restless with where I am (physically, spiritually, emotionally, relationally…everything). I just can’t find contentment. No matter what I do, I’m not content. I’m not content being single. I’m not content with my friendships. I’m not content with my relationship with God. How do we strive to be satisfied? After a long discussion with my mom tonight, I’ve realized that we will never be content until we are in heaven. Until we fulfill God’s Will for our lives, and follow Him and have eternal life, we can never be content and be satisfied. As long as there is sin, there will be unfullfilled hopes, crushed dreams, struggling relationships, broken hearts. As long as there is sin in the world and in human nature, we will never be content. I wonder how Jesus did it. I mean, of course, He was God, so he didn’t worry about it. He just pushed it out of his mind. One question though: If we are to be like Jesus, and strive to follow his example for our lives, how can we ever hope to succeed? He’s GOD! We can never be like God. We can will never acheive success and perfection. We can never save souls. That deed has already been done for us. How do we become better people? I long to be the woman that God created me to be. I long to be loved. I long to have more friends that I can truly say are my friends. I long to have more guy friends. I want so much more than what I have. I long and desire for so many things and ideals. Am I just being materialistic and looking to earthly treasures? I don’t know anymore. I never wanted to be like this. How did I become like this? How can I strive to be like God and be a good Christian when I am so full of discontent with how things are? How can I change that? I almost feel as if my life has become stagnant. It’s just… not going anywhere. If you have any suggestions on what I can do to change that, please let me know. I am genuinely interested. Maybe I should spend some time with Lord tonight and reflect on these things. Thanks for reading.
restless with life… January 24, 2005
a New Year, a new approach to life January 5, 2005
Hello everyone! Well, Happy New Year! I know I’m a few days late, but whatever. I have made my new years resolutions, and I’m going to try as hard as I can to stick to them. They are my goals for the year, not just this semester. So, I’m going to give you all a glimpse into my life and what I want for the next year… enjoy! Be sure to answer the question at the bottom! 
1) Devotional time: Spend time in the Word and in prayer each and every day. Do not accept excuses.
2) Minimal soda drinkage… cut down on Starbucks… SAVE MONEY!
3) WORKOUT! That means at least 30 minutes of exercise each day. Even if it’s just walking around the mall or running on the eliptical. JUST DO IT!
4) Let 2005 be the best year of your life yet! Have a positive attitude and always be compassionate. Do not judge, criticize or manipulate to get what you want. Be truthful to yourself. Be yourself.
I strive to be the woman that God created me to be. I want to be a great DCE and I am committed to doing whatever it takes to do that. Lord, you know me. the REAL ME! Thank you for making me this way. I can never repay you for this. But I will praise you and glorify you with every aspect of my life, even if I haven’t in the past. Thank you for your Son. What a marvelous gift. In Jesus, Amen…
Thanks for reading guys. Enjoy the last few weeks before school starts!
Question: What is your favorite bible verse or story and why is that verse or story special to you?
